Sunday, November 29, 2009


I feel trapped within my existance.
I'm regaining my life... and I suppose that with that change comes saddness.
At least, that is what I feel - an empty, bitter, devastating saddness taking over every inch of my body. I find that the urges are coming back tonight more than ever. And more than ever I find myself surrounded my some of the most wonderful people... and still, I have never felt more alone.

I have reclaimed my freedom.
I am taking steps towards my independance.
I am facing the obstacles and over coming them successfully...
and still I find the saddness and the urges resting within my stomach... waiting... waiting for me to take action. Waiting for me to solve them or do something, anything, to get rid of them - and I haven't a clue as to how to do this.

What is wrong with me?